I Messed Up

(I wrote this one a little over a year ago and thought it would be good to post.)

Sometimes I tend to spiral downward into a self capitulated, depressive mindset due to the mistakes I have committed in my past. I then run from the reality that I mistakenly or inadvertently created, not wanting others to view me in light of my errors. True, not everyone possesses the Godly love for me that would enable them to ride with me through my mistakes. However, for those who are such a friend, I hold close and cherish them as a loving mother would her new born babe. We all mess up, and we will mess up in the future. Not confronting, admitting, repenting, and learning from these mishaps will cause us to only fool ourselves and unavoidably make the same devastative errors, as we witness relational bonds with loved ones disintegrate and our since of purpose for life fade. No longer should we hide our mishaps but confess the mess that we truly are. I have messed up more times than I can count. In attempts to help, I have caused hurt. I don't have to hide that, but I must learn from it. Christ has covered me, stayed with me, and helped me when all others have forsaken me. Therefore I continue on, with the boldness and faith to know that some day I will make it to my promise land.